14th of March 2010

Hey x
How are you all?

So yeh. As you will know I tried to commite suicide a few weeks back. It's still hard, obviously. But then again so is everything. But I am getting better, promise. I have my exams in April-May, so school is trying to convince me to go back. I might try. I really amn't sure.

I've been reading plays recently. Not sure why. Just have. No idea why I said that but heyy. Crave by Sarah Kane is possible the most genious that has ever been written on paper. Ever. But it's not the best to read when you can be easily triggered. I recently found out Sarah Kane commited suicide when she was 28, a year after she wrote Crave. It's tragic, as is all death, but that especially since she was a pure genious. But reading her plays I realise the pain she had to go through to become genious. It's inspiring. And maybe she was meant to die, to let go. She put her genious out to the world and then her pain was taken away. But mines wasn't. Which means I must have another purpose, if not no one would have found me and I would be dead right now.

Blue Skies, Mack xxx